And then I forgot all about it. Until the morning of, when my friend who knew of it, called to find out what song I had decided to sing, etc. Uh oh. My gut reaction to his call was that I shouldn't go to the meet and greet. I should just stay home and play with my puppies. I had a good excuse-- I had totally forgotten all about it and hadn't prepared.
But I hung up the phone, and went out on my 5 mile run and got my thoughts together. At least a little bit. I decided what I'd sing. (Although my friend convinced me later that afternoon to do a different song instead.) And I figured out how I could tell "my story" in a short sound bite.
And really, I know I won't get picked for this thing anyway. I just wanted to show up. I never put myself out there. I miss opportunities due to fear, and then I have to live with my regret.
When I was younger, I never told anyone I liked to sing. Or that I knew how to play the guitar. Until I was about 32 years old. During a cruise with my family, my brother dared me to enter the talent show. I did, because other than my family, I didn't know anyone there, so I figured I could pull it off, and even if I didn't, who would care? Well, playing in that stupid little talent show sort of changed my life!
Taking chances, and doing something out of the ordinary can do that. I know that now.
So that's why I decided to go to this meet and greet thing. If nothing else, I can chalk it up to an interesting experience I've had.
|Meeting and greeting.|
|one of my ultra cool not posing poses|
I didn't use up anywhere close to my 10 minutes on that stage. I came off as someone who had very little to say. Which isn't really the truth of me at all. I have a lot to say!!! But I froze.
In the post performance interview, I think I told one of the producers that I like to write music, but that I don't like to perform. Which isn't entirely true, however, I do have a tendency to get a good dose of performance anxiety when it matters the most. And I'm sure that really impressed him. I'm sure he's looking for shy people who can't put words together to form coherent sentences. That would make super exciting TV!
Ironically, I sang my song, "Naked", which is exactly how I felt. Naked. On a fat day.